KAIDHA

You are all prisoners of you own bodies

2009-10-25T22:58:00.002+08:00

You can never truely let yourself go and be happy, you always holds something back, even from your loved ones. This maybe the self preservation mechanisism of humans. We try to shield ourselves of things that can and would harm us physically or emotionally.

At time we see loving someone as one huge threat. Loving someone is giving another person the power to hurt us. Though loving someone is natural it it so hard when you live in fear, fear of letting yourself go, letting that person in. Because once you let them in, you are left feeling so vulnerable, you feel almost naked by baring yourself emotionally. Doing so we might end up jepodising the very thing we want to salvage in life, what seem to matter.

Life teaches us to be strong, so we become strong by hiding our true selves from all kinds of hurt and pain, even from the person you love.

This is my last post, my blogging days seemed to have outrun its course, but I'll still be posting my insane, emotional and bubbly ramblings elsewhere...gonna make a fresh new start...

2009-10-24T21:14:00.002+08:00

Days rolled onto years and still you memories are ever fresh

but still i feel as if it all is just another bad dream

Its hard when you have to face the fact that you are really gone

but i think i'll live in the oblivion just a little longer

'Cause the pain sure is lesser compared to that of knowing you are gone

Maybe i just need another couple of years to get used to the idea of your loss

Till then i would let the tears roll down from time to time

Until a day comes that i would simply remember you and smile at the memory

TEARS IN THE EYE, PAIN IN THE HEART

2009-10-10T10:06:00.007+08:00

Some memories refuse to stay buried, I dont want to remember them, because all they do is make me cry, and I believe I have done more than my share of crying. I hide my tears from everyone, even from the ones I love, because I know they wont understand it, I myself don't understant it either, why it still hurts after all this time.

I heard, with time the pain of loss eases, you learn to let go of the memories, if not all but those that hurts the most. But somehow those memories are ever so fresh in my mind, the pain so real as if it happend yesterday.The only escape from the pain seems to be the never ending tears that falls from my eye every time I recall them.

So I cry, until I have none left, exhaust myself to sleep wishing, hoping I dont dream of you...

2009-09-24T00:08:00.003+08:00

When we were young we were so sure of what we want out of life that we never would have heard of the word compromise

but as life goes on and you are hit with reality you realise that you may not be able to get what you want at your own terms, whether its the typical person you want as a life partner or even a career

that's when we start to make compromises and choose the second bests

but, aren't we cheating ourselves by compromising???

EID : JUST ANOTHER HOLIDAY

2009-09-20T18:32:00.002+08:00

I remember a time when i was a kid, we would look forward to eid as being more than holiday

Its the day a big feast would be cooked and be visited by relatives

Its the day we would wear our new dresses and go to watch the marches

Its the day we would watch the firewoks of every colour blind the night sky

However with time, Eid has become just another day we could just laze around at home and watch tv or facebook all day

The only difference with a weekend and an Eid holiday is that it just last longer

Anyhow

Eid Mubarik

10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT ME

2009-09-12T02:24:00.003+08:00

I hate the fact that;

I'm accommodating,

I hate the fact that;

I'm compromising,

I hate the fact that;

I don't express my anger when I'm angry

I hate the fact that;

I hide how I really feel

I hate the fact that;

I can never express my fears

I hate the fact that;

I'm a pushover and people take me for granted

I hate the fact that;

I lie when asked how I feel to please them

I hate the fact that;

I trust people so quickly

I hate the fact that;

I am so forgetful

Mostly I hate the fact that;

I am unable to change myself despite knowing it all

2009-09-04T00:23:00.002+08:00

Another month

Another milestone

2009-08-20T03:47:00.000+08:00

Does the distance make the heart grow fonder OR does distance mean, out of sight out of mind???

2009-08-16T01:50:00.004+08:00

I have never written a post like this...but after reading Hilath's blog i just had to write this

Centuries and Milleniums ago, the Prophets showed us the ways of Allah, the path of Islam, the gift of Quran and the wisdom of Hadith's. All this is to guide us through the journey of our limited time her, our manual guide.

Injil was the scripture sent to Isaagefaan to guide the bani israil people, however it was banned after the bani israil peope made lots of modification and adjustments to it.

Those were the bani israil people, they were the people of the past, and we the people of the present are still following in their shoes. We take what have been told us to be done and twist it to suit for our advantage.

One good example is how we punish the people who commit robberies in Maldives, it is clearly stated in the Quran the punishment for such a crime; chopping off the hands and legs as s/he continue to commit the crime, however we Maldivians doesnt seem to be practicing this, nevertheless we are said to be practicing the Islamic law, Shariah.

Further, the Habi people as they are so famously known are coming up with their own rules and regulations and even have the gall to say it is said in the Quran and the Hadiths of the Prophets.

The wearing of the Abaya which covers the whole face is said to be a must as per them, however that is not that case. Islam nor the Quran has ever implied that women have to cover their whole face, but rather their au'ra, which is considered evrything else but the face and hands.

Our task is simple here, follow what has been brought to us by the Prophets, the path of Allah, is it that hard that people have to go and manipulate it for their advantage?

I do wonder how they are going to justify what they say and do on the day of judgement, now that would be one justification which would be worth listning to.

2009-08-15T09:44:00.001+08:00

About a decade or so ago, whenever two guys meet up they would end up going to Hotaa for a sai...

Now the tradition has changed somewhat and gotten more and more popular. Now adays when ever two guys or more meets up, the whole meet up is bound to end up in some cafe' or restaurant sharing a cup of never ending coffees and blow smoke at each others faces.

SOULMATES???

2009-08-10T00:26:00.002+08:00

Some say its the person who is meant for you

Or perhaps the one who complete you

the one person whom you are meant to be with

one person without whom you feel as if you are lost

one person who makes you whole

but, is there such thing as soulmates???

HELP!!!!!

2009-07-29T02:08:00.002+08:00

Ive been back at studying for the past three weeks and missed another three weeks at uni

I have no idea whats going in the classes and assignments have been submitted, presentations date are closing in, so are the due dates

In short im in deeeeeep Shit

2009-07-19T02:45:00.002+08:00

Remember those walls I built

Well baby they're tumbling down

And they didn't even put up a fight

They didn't even make a sound

I found a way to let you in

But I never really had a doubt

Standing in the light of your halo

I got my angel now

I swore I'd never fall again

But this don't even feel like falling

Gravity can't forget

To pull me to the ground again

Hit me like a ray of sun

Burning through my darkest night

You're the only one that I want

Think I'm addicted to your light

2009-07-14T19:10:00.002+08:00

I know it's easy to say but it's harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
I can't get my mind off of you
=)

2009-06-30T16:09:00.002+08:00

Expectations ; the root of all disappointments

SLEEPLESS

2009-06-02T11:48:00.002+08:00

Aaargh
Its been almost two weeks and still am not able to sleep through out the night without waking up around 3-4 in the morning, and unable to go back to sleep there after. And before I knew it I'd be dozing off in the afternoon and wasting the day away.
I need my sleep back
=(

IM GOING HOME =)

2009-05-21T04:03:00.004+08:00

After 5 looong months I'm flying home at last

I cant wait to feast my eyes on my lil sis

hug my mom

nag my bro for cyke rides

make hell for my bro and sis

irritate my grandma

hangout with samurai

Catch up with old friends

and be with my baby

2009-05-16T00:50:00.003+08:00

Einstein defined insanity as doing the same thing repeatedly and expecting something different to happen each time

So if you are not insane and you have been in love and had your heart broken, is it insane to think the outcome would be different a second time you are in love???

2009-05-13T03:50:00.000+08:00

We are humans after all so we would end up making mistakes, but a few of us admit it.

Because its human nature to turn a blind eye on their own flaws. Therefore when we make mistakes, we seek out someone else to cast the blame at.

Wouldn't it just create less drama if you just admit your own mistakes and go from there, but guess some people rather create more drama than owning up to their mistake and forgive and forget

2009-05-05T18:21:00.001+08:00

Last weekend had been all about reminicing with old friends. Met with friends with whom I had worked with and studied in the past. It made me realise how life had changed.

In our minds time may not have moved on in such a fast phase, but you would realise it when you look back.

Now we meet an old friend and know that they had gotten married and have started a family, which is suprising to us, cause for us it seemed like yesterday that we were 16, but in reality we are more close to being 26 than 16 :p

When you stop to realise it, we are not even the same person we were last year, we change, life moves on and with it we do have to change, we don't realise it thought, but change we do...

150 dayzz

2009-05-04T04:53:00.001+08:00

Never thought we'd make it this far, but yet we have
=)

2009-05-01T14:53:00.004+08:00

I've been awake for a while now

You've got me feelin' like a child now

'Cause every time I see your bubbly face

I get the tingles in a silly place

And it starts in my toes

And I crinkle my nose

Wherever it goes

I always know

That you make me smile

Please stay for a while now

Just take your time

Wherever you go

(Bubbly-Colbie Callet)

We all make mistakes

2009-04-23T22:18:00.003+08:00

Adam and Eve were told to stay away from the forbidden fruit, but they ended up eating it nevertheless

There began the human nature of making mistakes, and till this day onwards people still make them

Mistakes were not supposed to be forgotten, if that were so, the whole point of it ever existing is pointless

Adam & Eve learnt the lesson of obedience. Just like that every mistake teaches us a lesson, a lesson we need to embrace, so that we can further avoid repeating them, or prevent someone from repeating it

I'm not ashamed to admit that I've made more than my share of them, but even more proud to admit that I've learnt more from it

TRIP TO SUNWAY LAGOON =)

2009-04-18T07:23:00.002+08:00

Had the most hectic and the bestest day ever
I've been meaning to go to sunway lagoon for ages now and finally went with two of my class mates...we went there at 11 in the morning and came back at 5, from that it took us an hour to find our way through
When we got out from we were so hungry that we went off to have a huge dinner...then spent an hour trying to get a cab (Friday evenings are rush hour, real difficult to get taxi)
So ended up spending an hour ride in the KTM to get home
No matter what, we had such a BLAST, loved the water rides there, though had to so some convincing to the other two to try the rides...wanna go back soon and try out the other parks
=)

2009-04-09T01:37:00.002+08:00

Somebody once said that if u laugh too much then you are bound to cry soon
So no matter how happy we are we are bound to spill a few tears along the way...
so smile, laugh all you can and be happy before the tears starts streaming down
=)

2009-04-05T01:34:00.001+08:00

Can't help but smile everytime i think of you
=)

2009-04-01T20:05:00.000+08:00

We say we want to know the truth, that we can handle the truth.

Whoever said that had live to regret it later

We can never handle the truth, no matter how we prepare ourselves

Truth doesn’t set us free, it break us

No wonder ignorance is bliss!!!!

2009-03-24T19:24:00.000+08:00

do we still go on celebrating their birthdays...even though they are not here

2009-03-22T19:53:00.000+08:00

People say pain of loss never goes away...it comes in waves,...but what you do when the pain is constant...

2009-03-11T05:20:00.000+08:00

Anger is such a misplaced emotion. We get angry for different reasons, some which may seem stupid and uncalled for when we look back. Sometimes, the reason for being angry may seem right and may make sense at the moment, but with time you will only remember the fact you were angry and loose sight of the reason behind it.
Some wise guy once said
Get mad, then get over it
=)

LOVE BUG

2009-03-08T11:50:00.000+08:00

Once bitten by the love bug people are never the same
Some become strong with the pain, while other cower away all their life with the scars
Some became so hard of the lessons learnt, while some soften up to the sweetness of it
And a lucky few live life never being confronted with it

2009-03-07T06:25:00.001+08:00

You never see the hard days in a photo album... but those are the ones that get you from one happy snapshot to the next...

But, sometimes it's only the snapshots that you are left with...

2009-02-23T01:08:00.000+08:00

Can people be in a relationship and not fall in love???

2009-02-02T01:50:00.000+08:00

Did you ever wonder that after you get married you can never be single
Its either you are MARRIED, DIVORCED or WIDOWED
scary thought

NEVER ENDING TRIP TO PENANG

2009-01-24T21:26:00.000+08:00

I was up all night doing my assignment and preparing for my presentation. I went to uni early so I can prepare for the presentation with my group buddies. Luckily the presentation went well and I was able to submit the assignment on time. I thought it was one of those days that things were going to go right.
Alas! I was wrong. I went home and packed my bags to get ready to leave to Penang with my cux and her hubby. We needed to catch the bus at 4:30. We tried to get a taxi at 4, but all we got was a
Im sorry no taxi
So it was a race against time. We carried our luggage to the nearest taxi stop (which is a 5 mins walk, imagine carrying one large suitcase, one small suitcase) and to top it off the traffic was unbelievable. However it was no surprise cause the Chinese New Year holidays were here and everyone was in hurry to leave for the holidays like us.
We reached the bus station after 10 minutes pass the departure time, so we missed the bus.
Panic mode. My bro-in-law(BIL) and I rushed to find another bus, and luckily we found another bus in 5 mins.
My oh my what a bus. It shook all the way to Penang, I had my doubts about us making to our destination in it. And further a trip that should only have taken 4 hours took us 6 hours.
I thought we were pass the hard part and we can have a smooth ride once we got to Penang, but no, fate just was having too much fun for it to end.
We got on to taxi and he said
Oh I know the place
So we were off to the apartment. It turned out the guy had no idea where the apartment was, so it was another half an hour riding trying to find the place which should have taken only 10 minutes.
Finally we reached our destination, and I was ready to crash. Never was I gonna go anywhere in the rush of a holiday...naaaah...I'm not gonna sacrifice my holidays cox of some sick joke fate plays =)

2009-01-22T01:28:00.000+08:00

In life when we are so used to bad stuff that when something good happens along the way we wait in vain for it to come to an end, cause its hard to believe that somethng good can finally happen after all the bad that has happened.

2009 =)

2009-01-01T02:08:00.001+08:00

Smile at every opportunity life throws your way
Even when you are not sure...or when you wanna cry so bad,
a smile can go along way...so what if the world has turned upside down, maybe its life's way of saying what's to come is worth the hurt...
say goodbye to all the heartaches, all the hurt you have felt this year and welcome the new year with new hopes, hopes of things to be better or atleast you'd try to make it better with a positive attitude
Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

????

2008-12-07T17:12:00.000+08:00

What do you do when you get something you want but you aren't sure whether its real or not

TIME HEALS...MEMORIES REMAIN

2008-11-18T21:55:00.000+08:00

TIME was supposed to be the greatest healer of all...but along with this time comes it ally...MEMORIES which never fades...so no matter how much time passes...the memories are ever fresh...and along with brings all the emotions that we long to forget...

TOO MUCH FREE TIME ON MY HAND :)

2008-10-12T03:39:00.001+08:00

Drew these when I got bored in one of the lectures and did the rest when I got bored at home...

EVERY ONE HIDES BEHIND A MASK...

2008-08-15T23:33:00.000+08:00

Masks. We all wear them. Some wear it to conceal their fears, hurt, because they are scared of revealing their true selves. Some wear it because they are ashamed or guilty of who they are. Some wear it to gain other peoples approvals by hiding their true self.
But there are those who use these masks as to conceal their evil natures. They pretend to be your friend or your ally and will strike when you least expect them to. One moment you think you know that person but then the next you realize how wrong you were. It was all an act. You are then face to face with the real person behind the mask, and then you wonder to yourself, if a person you knew so well can be wearing masks why the rest can’t.
It’s hard to know who is who anymore. Betrayals have become common practice. Hurting one another a new kind of culture.
As the saying goes what goes around comes around, I do believe that one day they would have a taste of their own sick games and know how much it hurts to know that the person you thought you knew was just another stranger behind a mask.

WAITING...

2008-08-06T22:01:00.000+08:00

In the last couple of month’s lots had happened in my life which had thought me a few valuable lessons.

One of them was about trust. I learnt that trust is not something that everyone can afford. People say that we are supposed to trust our instincts, but what do you do when the same instincts proves you wrong, or leads you to make the biggest mistakes of your life???

Well there is always the “life teaches you a lesson” theory right. Which is right infact. It sure has taught me more about myself than I knew.

It had taught me that I can cope with almost anything in my life. Life had thrown some mean punches my way but I had always risen through them with a little help from my family and a lot from my friends.

So in the end I had learned that things never do stay the same nor does it go according to how we think they would. That is the beauty of life. It’s a mystery, just like one of the neatly wrapped gifts you receive. You just have to open it to know what’s inside. It may not always be something you expected.

My life’s pretty messed up now but I know they won’t stay like that forever, one of these days I’ll get out of them and figure out the bigger plan that fate has in store for me. Like they say, there is a dawn after every dark night. Well my dark night is here, I’ll just have to wait for my dawn.

FOR THE TIME BEING...

2008-07-02T23:34:00.000+08:00

I want someone to wipe the tears from my eyes
But for the time being I'm gonna let them roll down
I want someone to cheer me up when I'm down
But for the time being I'm gonna live in the blues
I want someone to catch me when I fall
But for the time being I'm gonna keep on falling
I want someone to love me
without reservations...unconditionally
But for the time being I'm gonna wait
like I wait for everything else in my life...

2008-07-01T01:08:00.000+08:00

Another birthday...Another year Older...Hopefully Wiser too

HOW TO SURVIVE A RELATIONSHIP...

2008-06-25T02:06:00.000+08:00

In the initial stage of a relationship everything seems to go so well you wish things could never have been better. Well thats the first mistake you make. Nothing stays the same. Things change, people change, relationships change. Therefore we need to change along with it.

We all want the happily ever after. But is there any such thing as happily ever after??? Well there are for some few lucky but what about for the rest...I really doubt it. Most People have to struggle to make it through the day without breaking up the relationship.

For me the root of all failed relationships are the EXPECTATIONS. We either expect too much or too little. In every relationship there will be one spouse who always expect too much...and these are the people who are left disappointed...and there starts the crack in the relationship. And while all this is happening the other spouse is unaware.

COMMUNICATION. The second failure. When things get tough we need to communicate, if not things can never change nor get better. We bottle up so much that in the end it becomes this huge volcano ready to erupt, and when it does the ending isn’t pretty. So therefore we need to say what needs to be said at the time we feel it, don’t keep it lock away.

NAGGING. We don't like to be told the same thing again and again and do we need a mother hen hovering us. Companionship is what we seek in a relationship, not someone who is at our case 24X7. When the nagging starts the relationship starts to crumble because one of the spouse end up getting tired and may turn in to wrapping up of the relationships.

SPICE. When life starts to go on clockwork it should be a wakeup call to us. That's usually when we try to seek for the extra spice. Some search for it in the relationship and some elsewhere. If you are lucky then it’s in the relationship, if the later then it’s just pure bad luck...So at some point in a relationship there needs to be spice of some kind, something new, something out of the blues.

TRUST. There will come moments in every relationship where this trust is tested. It might be just a minor issue or just something major. But the enemy of every relationship has been doubt. This doubt may start small...but when it grows it would eat through the trust until nothing is left but mistrust and deception and pretense. Therefore when ever you are face with a trust issue trust your instict, just don't follow whatever is being said to you...Its you who has to face the music in the end...so let the decision be yours and no one elses.

HONESTY. We always try to hide stuff. Things that we are ashamed of, things that we are scared of. But in a relationship we need to share...even the dirtiest of the secrests. The more that we share the closer we get. People may do things that they feel guilty about telling their spouses...but in the end its about being honest...try it...you'll feel peace in the relationship ...and the level of trust would grow for sure.

And finally PATIENCE. very relationship has their on's and off's, and in order to survive it we need patience. If a spouse has the patience to tolerate all the above said taints then the relationship had won half way. When things go wrong one patient partner could save a relationship, but without it, it doesn’t stand a chance.There will be all the above said things in every relationship, some more and some less. But it’s those who balance them who champion a relationship. And even if it does survive then it sure is one hell of a miracle :)

MY DA-DA-LING IS 4 :)

2008-06-13T21:13:00.000+08:00

Today my Da-Da-Ling turned 4 :) I still remember the day when she was born...she looked like this tiny little angel...so fragile...
I fell in love her from the first moment i laid eyes on her... She is the apple of my eye and I misss her :(
This is the first time and I know not gonna be the last time she celebrate her birthday without me...but i sure wish I was there with her...
Anyways Happy Birthday Shuko...May you grow up to be just like ME :)

DISAPPOINTMENTS...

2008-05-24T03:02:00.000+08:00

Never should expect anything from anyone....cause expectation leads to disappointments...especially in love...don't expect anything in return...cause you never know when you heart is going to be trampled over

UNSURE....

2008-05-22T17:11:00.000+08:00

I sense there's something in the wind

That feels like tragedy's at hand
And though I'd like to stand by him
Can't shake this feeling that I have
The worst is just around the bend

:)

2008-05-19T21:39:00.000+08:00

just cant help smiling :)

FALLING...

2008-05-14T15:00:00.000+08:00

Falling from anywhere is always painful...but the most painful of them all is fall is falling in love
When you fall from a chair or maybe the stairs you can get up and mend the bruises or the broken bones...and with time the scares will fade away before you know it
But when you fall in love...you feel like you are hit by a thousand bulldozers...it knocks the wind out of you and you are never able to recover from it
As for the healing or getting over it...we'll if the love is true then there is no getting over it EVER...you are stuck with it for the rest of your lives...
Its not always that bad I guess but it always depends on the person with whom you have fallen in love with...it’s that person that counts...
If he is a Mr. Wrong then God oh God you in for a long series of painful episodes and if it’s Mr. Right then the pain would continue but you will be comforted with the idea that there is someone to ease the pain
No one can or ever has evaded from falling…falling…falling in LOVE
So why fight it…it can’t be that bad…RIGHT????

FAREWELL FEVER

2008-05-10T15:21:00.000+08:00

In the past week I had had two surprise farewells, and stupid me didn't even suspect a thing :s

The first one was given by my offcice mates. My cux dragged me saying that she needs to go shopping, then it turned to a wedding and then finally a coffee with some dude...and wen she was changing her mind all this time I had no idea that someting else was cooking...(I was so tired to think had a tiring few days) I was so surprised when everyone (except two) in my section was there...even my boss was there :D I had so much fun that night...thanks niya for all the lies

And then I got my second surprise last night...But this time I knew that something was cooking...the same niya was so insistant that I go to this weddding of her offfice mate...I thought I was one step ahead this time but alas I wasn't

Guess where the party was...at my own home and I didnt have a clue :S silly me dho...Niya took me to her house and man oh man she was slow at getting ready...she litrally dragged her feet on the way home...When I went home lots of relatives, friends and office mates were there...the BIGGEST surprise of all was the gift given by Niya and the gang....the SUITCASE I wanted from EVINCE....Ufalugos kiriyaa nurovuneeee...they are the BEST

One more funny thing happened on our way to my home....Niya said we were going to a wedding and I forgot my slippers at home so had to go and get them, and on the way she said lets stop at dejavu to get a gift for the wedding...so we went there and while Niya was talking on the phone her bag knocked a vass and it crashed LOL

It was soooo hilarious...For the first time in my life I went to buy a gift and then came out emppty handed a little less on my wallet :D

Overall I had a BLAST

BRIGHTER THAN SUNSHINE

2008-04-29T01:35:00.000+08:00

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
And it's brighter than sunshine

I didn't have the strength to fight
Suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling

BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR

2008-04-24T21:47:00.000+08:00

What you desire may not necessarily mean what you need
Desire had lead to lots of disasters
And I hope and wish that what I had desired
And the road I'm leading doesn't lead to one

FUTURE????

2008-04-18T02:26:00.000+08:00

Future. There is nothing more scarier than what the future holds. Some people wish that they can look into it, so they can be prepared for what is about to come....but can anyone ever be prepared for what the future brings.....A begger today, a millioner tomorrow and vice versa. So how can we be prepared for the what the future bring?????

HYPERRR

2008-04-12T23:28:00.000+08:00

I know I haven't written much about what is going trough my life for the past couple of months. Lots have happened in the time being...I had changed the office I had been working....got a scholarship...gone to one of the most disastrous outing and one of the most fun..
But currently I had busied myself with the ijthimaaee committee of my offfice by helping out in the futsal tournament...by being a cheeeerleader cause there is a competition to choose the best supporting squad and we are sure in the lead :D
I am having soooo much fun these days...I'm always HYPER these days....so full of energy...I wanna Jump...Run....Skip

SOMEBODY STOP ME :D :D :D

COURAGE....HOPE....FAITH :)

2008-04-09T22:40:00.001+08:00

Let the past be where it is

and make new discoveries each and every day
So what if we made mistakes,
so what if we failed,
so what if we lost,
So what if we get hurt,
We would always have tomorrow
To right what was wrong
To champion in what we lost
To get over the losses
To heal the wounds
All we need is just a little
COURAGE....HOPE....&.....FAITH :)

2008-03-31T01:05:00.000+08:00

I didn't mean it when I said I didn't love you so 
I should have held on tight I never shoulda let you go 
I didn't know nothing I was stupid, I was foolish 
I was lying to myself 

The feeling that I'm feeling now that I don't hear your voice 
Or have your touch and kiss your lips 'cause I don't have a choice 
Oh, what I wouldn't give to have you lying by my side 

When you left I lost a part of me 
It's still so hard to believe 
Come back baby, please 
'Cause we belong together .....

FAIRY TALES???

2008-03-25T23:22:00.000+08:00

You know when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales? That fantasy of what your life would be – white dress, prince charming who’d carry you away to a castle on a hill. You’d lie in your bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the tooth fairy, prince charming –they were so close you could taste them. But eventually you grow up and one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it’s hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely because almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope and faith that one day they would open their eyes and it would all come true.

Grey's Anatomy

2008-03-25T05:15:00.000+08:00

Its been five months since you gone away
left without a word nothing to say
So I ask God
God send me an angel From the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes....

PAIN....

2008-03-20T17:08:00.000+08:00

Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed, but sometimes the pain gets you when you least expect it, hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it, and life always makes more...

-Grey's Anatomy-

DON'T WANNA BE ALONE

2008-03-15T10:23:00.000+08:00

People are lonely in this world for lots of different reasons. Some people have something in their disposition. Maybe they were just born too mean, or maybe they were born too tender. But most people are brought to where they are by circumstance, by calamity or a broken heart or something else happening in their lives that wasn't anything they planned on. People are lonely in this world for lots of different reasons. The one thing that I do know is, it doesn't matter what any one of them might tell you--nobody wants to be alone.

-Taken-

WOUNDS.......

2008-03-12T12:45:00.000+08:00

People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret roadmaps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers.

What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should've healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again.

-Greys Anatomy-

ONE QUESTION?

2008-03-05T00:59:00.000+08:00

Don't you just have that one question that seems to keep repeating over and over in your head

And you know the person with the answer is nomore but you just long to ask

WHY?

SO I'VE BEEEN TAGGED

2008-03-03T15:16:00.000+08:00

A- Available?: for....?

B- Best friend: Samurai :D

C- Cake or Pie?: Cake

D- Drink of choice: Coke

E- Essential thing used everyday: My glasses

F- Favorite color: Purple, Pink and Blue

G- Gummi bears or worms: Gummi Bears obviously

H- Hometown: Male'

I- Indulgence: Books and internet

J- January or February: What the difference?

K- Kids and names: No kids YET

L- Life: Full of lesson to be learnt

M- Marriage date: Hmmmmm havent thought about it YET

N- Number of siblings: 4

O- Oranges or apples: Oranges

P- Phobias: Cockroaches, being in confined places and heights and spiders and all insects and animals EXCEPT small cats and rabbits :D

Q- Quote: Life is for living

R- Reason to smile: Don't need a reson to smile :D

S- Season: when its neither tooo hot nor rainy

T- Tag three people: finifenma, shan, forgiven

U- Unknown fact about me: Well guesss its UNKNOWN

V- Vegetable you do not like: Spinich

W- Worst habit: Trust too easily and Wasting time being too good to people who don't deserve it

X- X-rays you have had: Head, Wrist and Feet

Y- Your favorite food: Chocolate Fudge

Z- Zodiac: Cancer

2008-02-24T20:46:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wish that I could turn back time. Go back in time and change the fact that I had ever met you. Wipe you from my life. Erase you from my memories. Ease the pain.

But then I wonder, how my life would have been without you. I would never had known how it feeels to be in love and be loved in return by you. I know that the memories you and I had made, few, these memories will help to keep you alive in my heart. And it will also help to ease the pain and maybe I will be able to look at a new day without regrets. If not today then perhaps tomorrow

???????

2008-02-24T08:22:00.000+08:00

How can you tell the difference between LOVE.....INFATUATION...or a CRUSH

WHY?????????????????

2008-01-12T01:59:00.001+08:00

Why cant I seem to let go of the pain
Why cant I seem to forget you
Why does it still hurts so much
Why cant I stop crying at night
Why cant I seem to let you go

FIX ME

2007-12-19T02:11:00.000+08:00

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse?

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worst?

2007-12-06T13:05:00.000+08:00

What do you do when your ANGER and FRUSTRATION reach the breaking point???

2007-12-05T22:32:00.001+08:00

Need a shoulder to cry on

YOU DON'T SEE THE TEARS FALLING WHEN IT RAINS

2007-11-29T22:15:00.000+08:00

I like it when it rains,
I pretend I'm not crying

2007-11-04T12:17:00.000+08:00

And was it his destined part

Only one moment in his life

To be close to your heart?

or was he fated from the start,

to live for just one fleeting instant,

within the purlieus of your heart

-Ivan Turgenev-

IT'S TIME TO SAY GOODBYE FOR REAL

2007-11-02T00:41:00.001+08:00

Its never easy to say Goodbye
And its even harder when its some one you love
But nothing can ever be achieved
By refusing to let go
So you need to make you peace and say

GOOD-BYE

Mohamed Nazil

24.03.1986 - 24.10.2007

WAITING FOR THE CHANGE THAT NEVER CAME

2007-10-30T12:21:00.000+08:00

I wait in vain for things to get better....

but alas they don'tthings change with time

for better, i doubt

cause the change is another form of deception

To make us lower our guardsand feel as if things are finally going to be ok

but in the end we are back where we started

back where things never get better...

2007-10-26T00:50:00.000+08:00

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

TATA FOR NOW

2007-08-21T17:01:00.000+08:00

Today is my last day at the job which I had been working since Last year July
Am glad am leaving but a lil sad toooo cause Its hard to let go of something eh nu
Well I am letting go today....no more office

And yeah won't be able to blog for a while....But will be back soooooooooon

NOTHING IS GOING RIGHT

2007-08-20T16:59:00.000+08:00

Nothing is going right...I talked about changes before...well my life is turning upside down...why can't things just go back to the way they were

I pray to God to make things better
If not, at least not to make them worse
So far my prayers hasn't yet been answered
cause all I have been getting is bad new and more bad news...
It wouldn't hurt to have something positive to come out of all this
That way I'd have something to hang on to
Something to look forward to
Instead of waiting for the axe to fall
And dreading what more that could go wrong

EVERYTHING & EVERYBODY IS CHANGING

2007-08-09T21:27:00.001+08:00

Lately nothing is as it is now.Poeple are changing...things are changing and most of all I am chaging too.
My life seems be be going in clock work for about a year and then it stuck me that I dont want it to be that way anymore. I like plans but the few days in Thodoo made me realise one thing...its better to take a day as it come than to plan ahead.
But the real question is do I really need this change?
Thats not the only thing that has changed. Relationships has changed so much in the past month. My Aunt & Uncle are moving out on Friday. We all had been living together before I was even born. Nothing is ever gonna be the same again
I am soo confused...I am not sure about anything anymore...I liked the way things were before and I was happy about it
But I guess things can't always be the same dho...It needs to change in order for the world to move on...As for me I'd just have to accept this as as it come and go with the flow.

BESTEST NINE DAYS OF MY WHOLE LIFE

2007-08-07T11:24:00.001+08:00

Yeah, am back from Thoddu and V late in posting
I have grown soooooooo dark, and have a few bruises here and there but it dont matter. Cause I had the bestest time in thoddu

We would get up early in the mornings and walk abt 15-20 mins to the beach.And what a beach it was. You dont ever wanna get out.We all went there everyday we were there except the day we arrived and departed.

Apart from that we played loads of badminton ( lost a few pounds i like to think so ) & yeah cant forget went to the dandhu thah also. And this time I had the previlildge of picking a watermelon ( Alas! I dont eat them )And then we all went to the beach two days in a row after Tinks mum, sis and bro came which turned out to be the BESTEST picninc EVER
We played water ball, Volly, Riley, Boalha gahaaa, Goani riley, bulha riley, Football & Dodge balll.
And We even went riding in the fields...not two but three in a cyke. It was Soooo much FUN. Went even about half an hour before sunrise. I was sooooo scared. There are all this Handhi Fureytha rumors that would make anyone scared to go out at night. But I went regardless and I'm so proud of that :)
I even learnt to ride the cyke and almost had a fall it if werent for Tink's cux I would have came to Male' with more than a few bruises here and there
OOOH I miss Thodhooo already *sniff*

AT LAAAAAAAAAASSSSST

2007-07-26T14:37:00.000+08:00

No more entries...no more printing...no more reservation makings...no more STRESS Cause I am finally taking a Tiny vacation to tinks Island ..Yes Thodhoooo...About time So Its just me...the sandy beaches...the crystal clear waters
& Ya HAPEEE INDEPANDANCE DAY

HAPEE B DAY SIMBA

2007-07-25T13:43:00.000+08:00

Today is one of my closest buddies B day/ She turned 20 ( Twenteen in her opinion)
Why Couldnt she had wait to be born tomorow that way she could have been an independance child...LOL
Midho & I had been friends as long as Tink & Aesha & Sucksex. We have had our share of ups & down...but she is one person I can count on no matter what, She even went shopping with me on a rainy day carrying an umbrella from one store to the other. Coudn't have asked for a better friend.

HAP! B DAY MIDHO...A.K.A. SIMBA A.K.A. MITTE A.K.A. MIXHATH

She sure has loads of nick names don't she ;)

WAY BACK TO LOVE

2007-07-23T18:57:00.000+08:00

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Artist: Hugh Grant & Haley Bennett
Soundtrack from:Song & Lyrics

THE LIGHT OF THE FUTURE

2007-07-22T19:59:00.000+08:00

With the darkness closing in, I gaze into the light
The darker my past, the brighter my future
The emptiness ahead is filled with my dreams
With my actions
You never know when stepping in the light
If you are blinded by your future
Or skeptic from your past
Tired of your present

You need a change, you need hope
No more darkness in your life
This leap may be one you fear
But now, the future is near

By: Gilad Benari

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL

2007-07-17T17:11:00.000+08:00

YES!!! Finally. Ive been trying to coax mum to send Shuko to school from the start of this year. She changed her mind abt it at the mid of this year so by the time she had Shuko's three years. So that means she cant go to Baby Nursery but Nursery
Tried shopping for a cute barney bag cox Shoo was craxy abt it....but these Male' shops don't have anything cute enough. Everywhere I went there was Barbie and more Barbie.
So in the end I gave in and bought A barbie bag ( Barbie Farietopia).
Got bixy with the name tag...Tink helped me out, stayed up till 2 to finish it up ( since I had no time the whole day)
After all the hard work she was supposed to go to school on Sunday, but it rained like cats & Dogs...so no school ( all my hard work and sleepless night gone to waste *sigh* )
So on Monday made some lame excuse at office and came home to take Shuko to school with mum and beybe.
There were 5 girls and 6 boys in the class. Shuko clunged to my legs sticker than glue. Then the Aunty came and took her to the corner to show something and mum & I made our escape.
Aunty closed the door and then came the tears. Shuko was banging on the door and crying. It was heart breaking. She cried for abt 5 mins but it seemed like more. But then a reallly good Aunty came and picked her up and started to the BIG talk saying this and that. This somehow made Shoko stop crying and mum and I started to go home
Then we thought of buying some chocolate to distribut to the class...so bought it and brought it back and sneeked at Shuko...She had this betrayal look oon her face but I knew She'd be OK
In my family Niha ( my Cux), Huxain ( her bro) and I were the only one who hadn't cried bloody murder on our first day of school. And I'm darn Proud of IT :)

I'VE BEEEEEEEEEEEEN TAGGGGGGGGGGGGED

2007-07-15T18:04:00.000+08:00

1) 3 Things You Can’t Do

*Turn back time
*Fly
*Sing ( I got the worst voice ever)

2) 3 Things You Can Do

*Make anyone laugh
*Dream
*Make any worse situation seems like the best

3) 3 Things That Scare You
*Cockroaches (Eeeeeeeeeeeek)
*Dark
*Heights

4) 3 Things You Love
*My mum
*Shuako
*Friends

5) 3 Things You Hate
*Smokers
*Liers
*People who try to hurt people I love

I choose to tag
Nazia
Nadhee
Pixsie

WE ALL SCREAM FOR ICE CREAM

2007-07-14T14:16:00.000+08:00

It is common knowledge among us that tink doesn’t eat ice cream. I know weired cox who doesn’t like ice cream. It turned out that she ate so much ice cream when she was in aminiya that she has gotten fed up with it.
So I took it upon myself to re-introduce her to the wonderful world of ice cream. I took her to seagull (where they have the yummiest ice creams) and I ordered for her. One bubblegum and chocolate chips ice cream and for me, a three scoop combination of pistachio, chocolate chips and chocolate.
Tink loved it. (Well after a few takes she hated the bubble gum but loved the chocolate chips)
So am planning on taking her there a few more times...Where ice cream is concerned...I bet no one can eat just one :)

FIRST LOVE

2007-07-09T13:35:00.000+08:00

We never forget the first times.
The first time we did something remarkable,
The first time we saw something mind-blowing,
Or the first time we felt something earth shattering.
We will remember our first love.

Love comes to us in different disguises,
But it is the first confrontation that goes deep.
We might never know who or when we might had felt it,
But the feeling will always remain with us.

Only a few are lucky enough to hold on to it
And start a life together,
As for the unlucky lot
They have to endure the pain
And learn the bitter lesson of loss and hurt

GOOD DEED FOR THE DAY

2007-07-02T18:49:00.000+08:00

Last year I took Shuko for walk with my cousin and her bf. We went to jumuhooree maidaan and shuko was excited looking at the pigeons. We were about few feet from the fountain and I saw this kid about one year all by himself there with no parent.
Suddenly We all saw a women running towards us screaming "magey dari magey dri" and pointing towards the fountain.
I looked and saw that there was no sign from the kid that I saw earlier. The I saw small hands raising from the fountain. My cousin and I ran towards and I reached into the filthy waters and took the kid.(In order to get there quickly I almot knocked Shuko, thank God my cux's bf took her)
As I took the kid,that kids parent who turned out to be his careless grandma (stupid women). She thanked us and took the kid to Islamee Marikazu in order to get the kid cleaned up.
I know the water there was no deep but since the kid had fallen and was unable to get up
I felt prood myself and considered that I had done my good deed for the day :D

EXPECTATIONS!!!!

2007-07-01T11:41:00.000+08:00

Grown from the bud of hope
Deserted by the tears of Disappointment

ADIÓS TEEN LIFE

2007-06-30T16:56:00.000+08:00

Cheers...No more a teen & Im loving it :)

BECAUSE OF YOU...

2007-06-28T11:30:00.000+08:00

I've been listening to this song a lot latelty so thought I'd post it :)

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did

You fell so hard I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

I lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out I cannot cry

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh

Every day of my life

My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me,

but everyone around me

Because of youI am afraid

-Because of you-Kelly Clarkson-

EMETOPHOBIA

2007-06-24T11:42:00.000+08:00

The past week I have been hit by this bug or whatever that had made me queasy all day and wanting to vomit. Since I hate ( more like am afraid) to vomit I've take every measure not to vomit. So I had avoided any kind of food ( or drink ) Empty tummy will not have anything to be thrown up :D
So For two three days I hadn't eaten anything but ice cream and chips. My mum was going frantic, while my kid bro ( who is 12) went to the bathroom to throw up now and then , and was telling to I should eat and throw up that way it would pass for good
But wild horses can’t make me throw up. I have emetophobia, which is fear of vomiting. When I was a kid I heard this story that a kid due to worms started to vomit, and then worms started coming from his mouth, and not long another was coming from his nose. Since all of his air ways were blocked, he died.
So since then I fought all means necessary to avoid from vomiting. But alas on Friday night I almost won over the vomiting when I went to attack some juicy fried chicken.
Anyways now I'm all better. All it took was only once to vomit.

FRIENDSHIP....ONLY A BEGINNING WITH NO END

2007-06-23T15:49:00.000+08:00

Each Little Joke We Had Shared

Little Arguments That had Ended In Fights

Little Acts That Had Turned Into Heartfelt Joys

All Stored In The Treasure-Chest Of My Fond Memories

So One Day When I Am A Lil Blue

I Can Unfurl Them And Find Myself Amidst The Most Beautiful Moments

In My Life Once Again

HAPPY BEST FRIENDS DAY

GOING HOME

2007-06-19T15:06:00.000+08:00

She stood there standing numb of all feelings. The wind kept playing with her hair and blowing her dress around her feet. All she can think about was about how unfair every was. Life…Fate…and even God Himself.

When She was just a toddler her father had abandoned her and her mom. But she bravely faced it all and didn’t shed one tear. She was too young to feel any thing. At the age of 10 her mother committed suicide, she stood there froze looking at her mother hanging by the ceiling. She never cried out, didn’t make one sound. She wished for things to get better.

At the age of 15 she was brutally raped. She took the hurt in. Never complained to God. Never showed any sign of anger, any sort of revenge. She moved on hoping life would finally be kind to her.

At the age of 19 she got married and her husband got killed weeks after the wedding. She stood there frozen in the winter cold at the funeral. Not one tear rolled from her eyes. She held brave face and knew things would one day be better.

Weeks after the death of her husband she lost her baby.

So lost all hope. She belived in the rainbow that was goning to be ther after the storm, but in truth there never goinng to be one ever again, not for her.

Everyone she loved had left her…her father…her mother…her husband…and now her precious child was taken away from her She can still go on as if nothing is wrong but she has had it with lying to herself. She just had enough of life shooting challenges at her way.

She looked down from the terrace. Yes the world down there doesn’t care about anything but themselves. As for her she has nothing to care about. Everyone she cared about has been taken from her. She never asked more from life, just for life itself be kind to her. But seems like she was asking for the impossible.

She walked to the edge and spread her arms and pushed her self. For viewers she might seem like she was falling, but she knew she was flying. And she was flying to her loved ones, her family. She was going home.

NICKNAMES...EVER WONDER WHERE AND HOW IT BEGAN

2007-06-17T19:21:00.000+08:00

Each of us were born and given a name...but instead of that we use an alternative. It took our parents hours,days,months or sometimes years to come up with the perfect name for us, yet we chose to be known as some other name. I believe that there is no certain stage in life where we gain nicknames. It could begin anywhere.

My kid bro was called Kitty cox he looked like a cat when he was a baby, the name was given to him by his cousin who was only 6 months younger than him. And kitty gave that cousin the name Aby cox he some how couldn't pronounce his name. Then came Kambo...I really have no idea how that one started. It's no only adults who come up with names....the kids make up the cutest of nick names. My lil sis call our uncle Boaba (A.K.A. Donbe) & me Doatha (She couldn't say Dondatha cox it was too long for her). And all this when they were toddlers.

The nicknaming continues when we are in school too. Nicknames are called with accordance to some event that might have happened, (eg.Miss Aminiaya was called to this gal, she used to act so tui and was named as such), due to appearance (eg, the Aminiaya supervisor was called Woody cox he looked like Woody in), and due to their given names (eg, there was a teacher called Shehezaard & we called him Prince), and sometimes due to how they act ( we sometimes call tink gamarunisa cox she sometimes act a lil dumb), due to the name of their house (Senko Shreef)Names are given to different people for differnt reason

Here are some names of my friends:

Tink/Baybigal,Suxsex:Well that was somethin they came up with themseves

Yuyu,Midho:Given by their families

Simba:Given cox she wore a Simba T-Shirt once

Xuny,Aisha:Short for her long name

Gamru:Cox She acts stupid sometimes

Samurai:Hmmm I think cox its the similarity between the two names

As for my name, Kaidha: It is short for Safarukaidha, that is cox I got a huge temper or was it cox it's kinda like my name. Hmmmm ( I cant reallly figure out tat one )

HAPPI B DAY SHUKO

2007-06-13T12:23:00.000+08:00

My mother found out about her unexpected pregnancy when I had finished my O Levels. believed then that my mum was too old to start raising another kid.

She had been vomiting the whole of Ramdhaan and didn't even sensed that she was pregnant. For a women who has given birth four kids this was pretty ignorant that she was unaware hat she was pregnant.

Any how she found out later but then also I did lack the enthusiasm. But as days and months passed the prospect of another baby in the family became something we all were looking forward with anticipation.

The doctor told mum when she was six months pregnant that is was a boy, I was so excited, later the doc said it was a gal. And a gal it was.

13th June 2004 mum woke up around 5 and woke the whole family and we all rushed her to the hospital. I had never looked forward to anything that much in my whole life.

12 hours later at 06.06 in the evening Shuko was borned.

She was beautiful, she was perfect slky black curls to her tiny little toes, The best part , she looked like me :)

From that day n ward our lives changed. It started revolving around her

HAPPY 3rd B DAY SHUKO

WAITING IN VAIN

2007-06-11T14:01:00.000+08:00

Hours continuing long, sore and heavy-hearted,

Hours of the dusk, when I withdraw to a lonesome and unfrequented spot, seating myself, leaning my face in my hands;

Hours sleepless, deep in the night, when I go forth, speeding swiftly the country roads, or through the city streets, or pacing miles and miles, stifling plaintive cries;

Hours discouraged, distracted--for the one I cannot content myself without, soon I saw him content himself without me;

Hours when I am forgotten, (O weeks and months are passing, but I believe I am never to forget!)Sullen and suffering hours! (I am ashamed--but it is useless--I am what I am;)

Hours of my torment--I wonder if other men ever have the like, out of the like feelings?

Is there even one other like me--distracted--his friend, his lover, lost to him?

Is he too as I am now?

Does he still rise in the morning, dejected, thinking who is lost to him? and at night, awaking, think who is lost?

Does he too harbor his friendship silent and endless? harbor his anguish and passion?

Does some stray reminder, or the casual mention of a name, bring the fit back upon him, taciturn and deprest?

Does he see himself reflected in me? In these hours, does he see the face of his hours reflected?

~ Walt Whitman ~

Picture from flicr

WHY?WHAT?WHERE?

2007-06-07T13:31:00.000+08:00

Recently my lil sis, Shuko keeps showering everyone she meets with questions
Why this? What is this? Where is this?She never seems to be out of questions. Sometimes I think she gonna grow up to become a TV host or someone.
The other day she saw a lorry and asked where is its nose?EkekeThat's not all...she is too keen a listener. She listens very carefully when two people are talking and pick up the conversation.
One day my grandma was shouting at donbe cox he was taking this lady out for spins. After that granny came to our room where there was one very keen audience listing to the whole quarrel.
Shuko came up to ganny and asked "Maama Boaba deke rulhi aisa dho? Boaba kaaku govaigen tha duvn dhany?"
My mum who was listening to this burst out laughing. We all learned that conversation like this should be kept private...well at least from shuko.
Remember the scene in Thiyaloabiga where the two girls fight over a T-Shirt and says vagu vagu vagu. Well Shuko picked that up too, whenever Shuko sees both of them she would keep on ranting vagu vagu vagu.
Well at that age I think all kids do all those craxy stuff which are so cute.(but not the questioning...God cox there never seems to be an end to it)And their curiousity is all over the place.

A WALK DOWN MEMORY LANE

2007-05-29T12:24:00.000+08:00

Last Friday I found myself with nothing to do...There was no pre-plans made. This is very unlikely for me. I always plan my days ahead.

When I was in school I remember that we all will be looking forward to our weekends. We would have this get to gathers every Friday where we watched moovies, played UNO or just hang out.

Mostly I remember how tink,sucks aesha and I went for our walks. We used to just walk around Male' aimlessly. We would sing these stupid songs, talk about everything and noting and just have a gr8 time.

There was this special place for us. Near Nasandhura there is this Neru place which is very peaceful and we used to go there a lot, more like every chance we get. We had so much fun there. But we stopped after we heard that is is not safe (Jinni type stories scared us). So we changed to our walking around Male' routine.

Somehow for some reason that I cant recall we stopped going for walks. Now I wonder why?

Any how things has changed alot since last year...I wish that it can still be like that. Cox I sure miss the good old days.

I SAY I HATE YOU...BUT I THINK I LOVEYOU

2007-05-28T16:23:00.000+08:00

When I heard from you I disliked you
The moment I laid eyes on you I felt disgust
The instance you spoke I hated you
The minute you left I despised you
Through it all I loathed you with all in me
But Still I ended up falling for you