Since she was a little girl she had hated her mum for something she thought her mom did. But how was she to know how wrong she would be proved
Abortion. Miscarriage. For a seven year old the meaning did not mean anything. She couldn’t differentiate between the two.
She found out that her mother has lost a child. She presumed that the child was her mother and fathers.
She lost it when she married her new husband.
Some years later she heard on the TV the word abortion she was used with regard to loosing a baby. She checked up the meaning. It was to terminate the pregnancy. She was under the illusion that her mother on purpose killed her sibling because her mother didn’t want to have a child of her fathers
For years she kept this anger, this hate hidden. She never spoke of it to anyone, not even her mother.
She secretly kept on resenting her. But as luck would have it she blurted out to her aunt who corrected her
Her aunt told her that her mother never aborted any child. The child she presumed was her fathers was actually her step father's child. Her young mind failed to make that connection that her mother and father had been divorced for a while.
And on top of that she found out that her mother actually miscarried meaning lost the child.
All her facts were based on her false assumptions.
Maybe it was cox she wanted some reason to hate her mother to driving her father away and bringing in someone else to replace him, or because she didn’t like the idea of her mother having any other mans child. Whatever the reason she learned her lessons. Her mother had always tried the best for her children no matter what. And she will NEVER put their lives born to other wise in any kind of danger.
She will forever have to live with the thought that she had unknowingly wronged her mother and she was too ashamed to tell her that. Maybe someday she will and then maybe she can out that to rest until then she will have to carry the burden.
